First Birthday Blues

First Birthday Blues
First Birthday Blues

My sweet daughter (who literally spent the first 6 months of her life sleeping) is turning ONE in a few days! Where has the time gone?!!

This sweet, calm, quiet, bundle of joy…


Has grown into a cheerful, affectionate, sensitive, and happy one year old!


We celebrated her birthday yesterday with family and friends and although the day flew by I couldn’t get that nagging feeling out of my head…you know, the one where you realize that your baby turning one also means that your maternity leave is officially O-VERRRR!


My maternity leave ends in exactly one week!! Many moms can attest to the fact that it is such an emotional milestone in a mother’s life. It’s been much harder to wrap my head around this time. As much as I feel guilty for saying it, I was SO ready to go back after having my son! (I shed a tear or two the morning of but as soon as I reintegrated myself into “society” I got right back into the swing of things, much quicker and with much more ease than I had anticipated!)

But this time is different…I don’t feel THAT urge to go back! I wonder…Is it because I was more occupied during this maternity leave, doing workshops and selling baby food? Or, is it because I KNOW what I am going to miss (like ALL my daughter’s second year milestone moments)?!

Let’s talk ‘time’…I keep thinking that I’m already busy enough as is so how am I going to manage getting all those daily tasks (which I now I have ALL day to do) done in the few hours I have each evening after coming home from work? And is it even worth hoping that a couple of hours spent interacting with my children in the evening will be just as satisfying has spending the entire day with them?

All I know is, I’m just not ready yet for the hustle and bustle of back-to-work life!

I’m going to miss taking the kids to the park…


Hearing my daughter giggle in her crib when she wakes up from her naps…


Preparing meals with my sous-chef…


Even just hanging out watching TV or playing games…


I’m going to miss being a part of their days (and all those milestones that will most likely happen when I’m not around to see them!)

Most of all, I’m going to miss the little things, like putting them down for their naps, preparing them lunch, watching them interact and play together…Basically, all the LITTLE things that busy moms sometimes take for granted…that is, until we realize that our maternity leave is OVER!


How did you cope with going back to work after your maternity was over?
Was it harder going back after your second child?


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